UNDETECTABLE

Today on this wet, grey, mid summer, EU referendum day, I have no virus detectable in my blood. I plucked up the courage to ring the stressed, over worked secretary (who didn't want me to ring her) and at first she told me there were no results in. My heart sank, but I pushed her, I asked for an approximation of when they would get to her. She began to tell me sometimes it can take up to 4 weeks….and then she found them….relief, joy, over-whelming emotions are running through me at this moment…

I rang my SistAs @ Glastonbury and cried, on loud speaker, whilst they whopped and cheered. Then I rang my beautiful son he is 19 years old and I have brought him up in a community of creative, rebellious souls, he is so wise for his years, when I got my original diagnosis he was about 5 years old and I was drinking heavily, taking recreational drugs,  from one day to the next I stopped drinking and taking everything and my personality changed. I remember him noticing and mentioning that I was much nicer, gentler, kinder. Hep C was a gift to me, after the shock of the diagnosis, I was 27 years old, my Saturn return. I changed my lifestyle and discovered myself, became a better mother and learnt that through challenges people grow and develop. 
I have always felt so blessed and lucky. 

Pricing of Hep C Meds Globally

I feel so emotional that I have this chance because of the generic buyers clubs and wonderful people like David Cowley who have made it possible for me to clear this horrid, damaging, killer, virus.

 Not so long ago I was grappling with thoughts and feeling about saying goodbye to my kids and never seeing my grandchildren, emotions that I shoved to one side and refused to let surface. Miracle molecules in pharmaceutical medicines and dedicated teams of biochemists have given millions of people longer lives. I thank all involved for these gifts. I am grateful for the ability to see the complexities of ethics and humanity, my down rigidity in belief systems, smashed….there is no black and white way of seeing the world, no definitive rights and wrongs…just each moments decisions to be taken one by one. 

No judgement, no criticism  Thankfully I have had yoga in my life for the past 20 years a practice to which I owe so much.